Friday, October 22, 2010

Fear…Love…Lost…

“Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.” ---H. Jackson Brown Jr.

Huh… how true. What is it that you fear, love and lost?

I was raised to not be someone who lives in fear. But honestly – I do. I fear of being misunderstood, never being “good enough” and I fear getting hurt.

I think my biggest fear is myself.

But then there is love. What do I know about love? I know that “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”

My love is for my girls. They have taught me more about true love than any other kind of love. True love is not selfish – it’s giving and asking for nothing in return. When you go through the sleepless nights and seemingly endless temper tantrums and it still makes you breathless to hear the words “I love you Mommy” – then you have experienced true love. I feel this should hold true for any kind of love.

My loss is when I allow my fears to prevent me from letting myself be me. I don’t always allow myself to feel my true worth. Sarah Markley (www.sarahmarkley.com) posted a blog today about choices. It’s an inspiring read and I highly recommend it. Ultimately it is our choices that take us on the path we walk. I think a lot of us can agree we have not made the best choices in our life. Did we learn from them?

I’m going to try something new. I choose to face my own fears. I’m choosing to love my insecurities, my quirks and my incessant ability to over think. I’m going to allow myself to feel emotions that I used to avoid or stuff away so that I can understand myself and others better. I think we should all embrace that we are individuals and we are more than “good enough”.

I’m going to refuse to live in fear anymore.

1 comment:

  1. I think your absolutely right about facing your fears. You'll never get past that part of your life if you don't. I fear a lot of things, like being hurt emotionally, losing a loved one, but most of all i fear rejection. I think sometimes people take what i say the wrong way and it makes them avoid me. I am a humble man, that has been through MANY of the same things as you, and then some. I agree with you and you should open up a little more and see where it takes you in life.

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